June 2012
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There are three distinctions in my world: dreams, daydreams, and reality. Dreams are subconscious and in an odd way, I believe each dream has a story and meaning behind it. In several of my dreams, I am often alone— usually starting off with people abandoning me and I somehow try to get over it. Daydreams are fictional, and the best part about them is you have complete control over them. In this...
May 2012
7 posts
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I'll be honest.
euniceepark:
I do miss talking to you. I do hate that we did drift and we don’t talk anymore. I kind of wish we were talking again, but I guess that’ll never happen considering that we never do try to talk to each other. We’re always concerned with our own lives that we don’t even try to attempt to start a conversation with each other. All I’m saying is that I miss talking to you, venting to you...
I just woke up from my 13 hour nap.
I hate being sickkk. &SATs are tmrw -___-
April 2012
13 posts
I feel like I drifted away from a lot of people.
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Setting fire to our insides for fun to distract...
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Moments.
SAT Prep was SO boring today. The groups are never talkative, the girl was last minute like the other one, totally not prepared &nervous. She said something and Lonna laughed. I looked at her and started laughing, knowing I wouldn’t be able to stop. I just knew Lonna was having her moments where she laughs uncontrollably. It was a life or death moment— to accomplish not having...
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So-Cal Trip.
Woke up at 5:30am &headed off to the EGC office. A total of 40 people went, 14 from OHS so we definitely outnumbered other schools. The trip was filled with alot of the time on the bus, nonetheless still filled with laughs from people singing, getting way into IP man, &singing Pursuit of Happiness constantly with Lonna. Lonna was able to sleep majority of the time, when I couldn’t :(...
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This sucks.
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A night of remeniscing leads to a broken heart.
March 2012
16 posts
I miss being so carefree. I used to ask no questions, go with the flow and usually it works. But now, it seems like everything has a catch to it. I just miss how things were last year; now I feel so busy and that I have to start growing up. In a year, I’ll be finding out what college I’ll be going to and in a way, that freaks me out.
I hope not much changes in a year.
I'm trying to keep myself happy, but no matter...
Pretend vs Reality
When is pretending okay? When does the truth have to speak, blunt or not?
I thought pretending was okay as long as it made someone happy. I rather see someone happy and know I was part of that reason rather than hurting someone in the end. I’m used to being hurt, used in particular that it just seemed okay to me if someone hurt me cause I know I won’t be extreme. I’m...
I rather be sure of someone’s feelings towards me then make assumptions.
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Watchjoaneezay:
shawtynguyensters:
this dance. ^
LOL
hahahha, i remember soriya showing me this. we’re gonna do this right, soriya? :D
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No more
negative thoughts and more positive outlooks. Instead of tearing myself down, I need to believe in myself. If no one will, I can’t give up on myself.
And if not for me, this is for you. I am deeply sorry.
Im sorry.
to my parents: I'm sorry I'm such a disappointment and I'm sorry I can't make good enough grades. I'm sorry I can't live up to your expectations.
to my friends: I'm sorry I can't keep a long term friendship with any of you. I'm sorry we lose connection after a while. I'm sorry I never stayed.
to the people at my school: I'm so sorry I'm weird. I'm sorry I don't fit in. I'm sorry I don't look pretty like all you.
to myself: I'm sorry I was ever born, I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry if I put you down. I'm sorry I made you miserable.
Stop making excuses &admit to your mistake.
I wish I had a lie detector.
A time machine too.
Some people have pitch black hearts.
Keep your doubts to yourself because you honestly know NOTHING.
You’re ignorant.
For awhile, I couldn’t figure out what to blog about but now that I do, I wish I didn’t have any of this on my conscience. It discourages me knowing that so...
Keep on swimming
There’s so much to do in so little time! I’ve fallen off the wagon with time management ‘cause of personal problems and it absolutely sucks. I hate that I can’t focus sometimes, because thinking how this decision will probably change everything in my life. What’s more upsetting is having stupid teachers lecture that people who didn’t do their homework is just...
February 2012
9 posts
There’s so much going on that I don’t know where to begin. I want to be better, but I feel so stuck in limitations. There’s so much to do in such a short amount of time; and time management is starting to fall apart.
My heart wants to talk, my mind is blank yet my voice can’t find the words to explain it. &Yet again, I’m stuck with no words.
January 2012
22 posts
I can't stand being around people who are always...